I lied to myself today

I lied to myself today
Its nothing new
Been doing it for weeks
Years even.

I lied to myself today
It was a kind lie
“Looks good on you”
Only worse.

I lied to myself today
I said, “I’m okay—
Or, at least, will be
Pretty soon.

The words scalded me
“No, you aren’t okay
Let’s roll the dice again
And again.

The real; the construct
The pain, a constant
The art lies in letting go
Simply “thus.”